New Slate

Honestly, I'm spent. I'm ready to forgive and honestly, it could be the liquor talking, but who gives a shit. I'm old and I don't fucking care anymore. It's time for clarity. So, for you lay people, here's the shiznit!

This PARTICULAR blog will be my confessional blog ... probably my most honest (in terms of my PERSONAL self .... i'm QUITE honest with everything in general). I'm going to forward ALL my feelings about TV to my TVlicious blog, movies to my Moobie Snob blog, my music rants to my friend Monica's blog Kill The Mic (which is AWESOME btw), my insane and probably hilarious "rules/lists for life" blog to Saviaj Manifesto and my film shite to and/or my latest film's facebook page for my latest film Crown Prince of Heaven. And that's the shiznit my people. As you all know I'M quite opinionated and that's the way it is. I have reconciled that with myself and get the fuck over it. I'm 30 and I'm not going to change. I LOVE that about being 30, that being an excuse because, honestly, I've been that way since ... birth and my niece is my fricking photocopy but WORSE so, it's probably (okay, i know it is) heriditary. But I'm constructive with my shit.

But I digress. Back on topic. Some folks I'm ACTIVELY trying to forgive and/or get over. My cousin who did a bunch a shit that I didn't understand. I'm done trying to understand and I'm on forgiving mode. I'm on get the fuck over it mode.

My ex-...who the fuck ever, who had a baby for reasons I cannot (WILL not) explain, took this information HARD for a variety of reasons. I'm done. Who cares.

To that chick who I was friends with for a couple of months, then flamed out and bad mouthed me to mutual friends without actually telling ME she had a problem ... Go fuck yourself. Hey, nobodies perfect. Least of all me. You should have just told me. I would have been like "okay, I can change this or that/I didn't mean this or that in the way you took it" or whatever. But now, I'm being passive aggressive, that's my way of being NICE because I actually VALUED our friendship and thought you would come to me with whatever problems you had, but you chicken shitted out ... hey, that's your way because you're young, whatevs. But you acted DIRTY and expected me to be nice ... and I know how NOT to be nice very well and that's not the tact you should have took. But you'll learn the hard way, but that's too bad because I'm very amiable to change and adjust to people that I like -- I'll adjust my behavoir to play less into their insecurities, but you'll never know because you're dead to me.

To the roommate that .... fuck you, I hope you burn in hell. LMAO, I'm serious. You know who you are. Unnecessary.

To the roommate that's really I nice person, but stinks and/or doesn't respect peoples stuff ... get that together and we could be MORE than fine, but grow the hell up.

To the person who .... is an idiot ... lol ... where is my filter??? Honestly, this could be a number of people, you catch more flies with honey than with vinegar. I work hard, I go the extra mile and I like you as a person. Your bi-polarness .... less than desired.

Anywho, that's the way the cookie crumbles .... Check out my new site Saviaj Manifesto!!! Awesomeness personified! It's the rules you should live you life by, because I said so damnit!

I'm trying to turn over a new leaf ... it's soooo hard being the "bigger" person.